Surrender Your Self To Love

There is magic humming in the air. The atmosphere mirrors the intensity of my heart by casting electric beams of light across the sky. A startling crack follows the flash and sends aftershocks down my spine, twisting through each vertebra, opening the spots of resistance that I’ve been asking to release, release, please just release. The beauty and ephemerality of living this life is just as profound and awe-inspiring as the thrill of an electrical storm. So intense in the moment, but gone in the blink of an eye. We must not be afraid of the power of love, we must open up those spots resisting vulnerability and we must show up as fully as possible.

Another quick burst of lightning and within that nanosecond transcending infinity our faces are illuminated only to be swallowed by the night once more. The thunder rolls across my skin, penetrates into my pores, and dances up my neck; each nerve stimulated with a sense of potential energy, building heat in the space between my eyes and all the way down to my tailbone.

I only thought about the people I would meet here and now that I’m actually living here, it didn’t really cross my mind until now that I would become so connected to these people only for them to leave.

We are travelers, after all.

All barriers fall away when we travel because of the knowledge that we may never see the people we meet again. All of who we are comes out, including the parts that we censor at “home”. Because we are so transparent, friendship runs deep quickly and feelings are magnified which makes it all that much harder to say goodbye.

I am astonished at the amount of love I have felt within the past day. I opened on the full moon, projecting out to the farthest of stars that I am ready to let go. I’m ready to let go of a closed and hesitant heart and here I am. Surrendering.

There were close to 20 people in the gentle yoga class I led last night; all of us relaxing by candlelight, allowing the waves and bugs to woo us deeper and deeper into the support of the earth. Couples curled up together for savasana, friends held hands, dogs came to relax in the corner and the smell of palo santo floated through the space.